I have way too much on my mind

me and smith are fighting

me and swain are....?????????????????

I dont want to do this anymore, i hate how i feel about him. I hate how he makes me feel.

He doesn't like feeling vulnerable? I AM VUNERABLE.

I dont want to have to regret it..... I dont know if it meant anything.

You get mad over the stupidest shit and i keep my damn mouth shut.

Do you know what I hear every damn day? Do you understand his stupid hand gestures? You should cuz you were doing the same damn thing. I cant take it anymore, I seen the signs you made for that stupid Lisha chick. I'm not mad about it but it pissed me off that you tried to hide it. And you're mad at me for not calling you yesterday? WHEN THE FUCK was i supposed to call you? I was gone all of friday, didn't know you called that night til saturday, and then Brandy tells me you were mad b/c I was supposed to call you and tell you about the show? I have to stop cuz this is making me mad.